What Is An Introvert Person Like!?
Hi,
It must have happened to all of you at least once that when you want to say something in discussion of four people, you don't know which invisible super spirit is stopping you from doing so. You can't make eye contact with anyone, you start doubting your own decisions, you feel fake in small talks, and you feel like everyone is judging you. This may happen to you sometimes, but it happens to me all the time.
In recently, I went to a family function, Where I absolutely didn't feel like going because I feel uncomfortable among many people, You know! I feel left out, and then distant relatives pop up out of nowhere like 18+ ads, staring at me as if I didn't exist in this world before. I continuosly giving them the same rude "MIND YOUR OWN BUSSINESS" facial expression. At that time, I felt so awkward that I was like "I should leave this illusory life and go live in the mountains become a cow, at least someone will look at me with love while milking a cow (And cows give milk, not bulls - If you try to milk a bull, except milk everything will come out, You'll Know It! If, Know It). And at this time, I don't know why I felt like that uncle ji is judging me:-
Uncle Ji's Pov:- "Look at this silent hero, what does he think of himself? My dog has more attitude than him".
Such stupid scenarios keep playing in my mind, which have no connection to reality. And I've made these scenarios a part of my personality, forget about my communication skills! If I think any further, this conversation will go forever...
What Is An Introvert Person Like!
So, a few weeks ago, I uploaded a blog about weaknesses. When I did some research on it, I found out about Introverts; A species of Homo sapiens who are still living in the stone age. For them, Their 4 × 4 hut is no less than a Heaven and Earth. At one point, even the stone age people had to venture out of their huts for food and water, but for this species, food comes to their hut itself. These people spend 23hrs and 30 minutes of their day inside their hut. I belong to this very species. They are my hungry wandering family ancestors. A documentary has also been made about them. We'll talk about that documentary some other time.
So, Introverted People,
I = Ingeniously
N = Navigating
T = Through
R = Reclusive
O = Observation
V = Very
E = Engaging
R = Rarely
T = Talking
According To Google*
Introvert Meaning
They are quiet and shy individuals who struggle to express themselves
According To Me*
Introvert Meaning
Being introverted doesn't mean you can't express yourself; It's just that sometimes they may not know how to express themselves in front of others.
Just few days ago, I was laying on my bed and enjoying all the fantasies that I've created in my head (Nah! I'm not gonna tell you about those fantasies or you might how perverted I am!). Aahm! okey then Suddenly, A message pop up in my notification when i click that icon, there was a secret message written in bold letters:- "To All Those Students Your VIVA will be held tomorrow!" That's It! The worst nightmare i could imagine. So, It was an official college notification I can't ignore it. I start to be mentally prepared for the so called VIVA. It took me 9 hrs to memorized the whole topic, but when the day of the VIVA came, I got so nervous that I couldn't even introduce myself properly. And these college folks; send a group of 7 boys as if it's not a VIVA but a actual battlefield inside. My voice wouldn't come out, and seeing so many people around, I felt even more nervous. Honestly, When I left from there, I felt so embarrassed, as If someone has made me wear a mini skirt and paraded me around the entire neighborhood.
Well, being an introvert is not a crime. And If you're an introvert, you'll find these things very common: you'll enjoy quiet and solitary environments, your hidden talents will remain hidden, Trusting others will become difficult for you, you'll dream big but those will just be remain dream, you'll start comparing your imaginary world to reality, you'll consider the characters like Itachi Uchiha from Naruto as your inspiration (Mine was Chhota Bheem I like his big biceps) and you'll doubting your own skills (If you have any skills). If all this happens to you, then my friend YOU"RE AN INTROVERT.
I'm trying to show you through these random scenarios, How does the minds of people like me work; Suppose your mom tells you to go to market and get 250 grams of laal hari daal, which will cost 25 rupees. upon hearing this, A voice in my head says, "Don't take risk", But I know very well, If even as a joke I denied, Which dialogue my mom is about say:-
Mom's Pov:- You'll spend whole day glued to your phone, with no concern for the outside world.
Asu's Pov:- Even If I cared about the world, who's gonna give me a PS5?
And these are things that keeps running through mind. I've applied a little bit of my leftover IQ and reached to this conclusion:- I'll take this risk, but I can't mess with my mom. And my mission was no less than a Kargil's missions.
First thing first:-
Mission's Priority:- Revise before departure:
Asu: Yes, I need to get the laal hari munge daal for 22,357 rupees.
Very Good! I failed even before the mission started.
Anyway to get there, I have to cross 3 to 4 dimensions, saving my dignity from danger of mountain beast monkies, Navigating through the difficult streets of the maze, and passing through through the territory of the danger rocky (Rottweiler dog), Which made it even more challenging for me. Once I get there, Just as 5 steps before the shop - My legs freezes and refusing to take another step. But anyway with a little discourage in my heart I enter the shop, The remaining small gaps was filled by that shopkeeper Uncle.
Shopkeeper Uncle:- What do you need, Son?
Asu:- I need daal.
Shopkeeper Uncle:- Which daal: laal daal, hari daal, hari om daal, mungi daal, peeli daal, sunny Leoni daal, gabbar singh daal, bhola daal etc.
After hearing so many options, a motivational speech popped up in my mind.
Asu: Darr toh sabko lagta hai, gala sabka sukhta, toh darr ko duur bhagao, Asu beta school jaao.
As I was making these scenarios in my mind, shopkeeper uncle said:
Shopkeeper Uncle:- Tell me son, What do you need? Others are waiting in line.
And all the pressure was on me,
To be honest; I was feeling so much pressure that I could fill 60 to 70 methane balloons.
Asu:- Uncle ji, give me Sunny Leone daal! (My intrusive fingers acted on their own)
No! No! No!
Of course! This didn't happen
This happened;
Asu:- Give me laal daal. When I got home, Mom's reaction was,
Mom:- Wherever you go, You always mess up. I asked for laal hari daal and you brought laal daal.
Asu: I was like, they're the same thing.
Hearing this, I don't how but Undertaker's spirit took over my mom; She said something in a heavy tone that, without a second thought, I fled from there, and now the challenge I was going to face was even more dangerous. Facing that shopkeeper uncle alone was no less than a face-off in a MMA.
Shopkeeper Vs Asu
Asu:- Uncle ji, I don't want this daal.
Upon hearing this, the Shopkeeper Uncle Ji's facial expression was:
Shopkeeper uncle ji's Inner Pov:- If I had known he would come back, I would have told him earlier that daals are not sold here, but I also I need money to gift a PS5 to the 6th son of my 5th girlfriend. If you guys don't know his birthday is next week.
Asu:- Having an embarrassed smile (My Inner me was feeling guilty as If I had done something inappropriate)
And Somehow, I managed to get through another day filled with Introverted embarrassed feeling.
So, For now, that's enough cringe. It's time to pack up.
A Good influencer
If you're Introvert and all these random scenarios happened to you. Then, my friend you're not alone in this introverted journey. If you need help then reach your parents and don't hesitate to be brutally honest.
If You've come here straight after reading just the first line of this blog, then read the whole blog. Otherwise, Gabbar Singh daal will be cooked in you home. I guarantee that you won't be able to predict even a single line because one of the best advantages of being a introverted is that something is always running through our mind all day long.
those who read the entire blog and If you like this blog then do comment which plot or which scene you like. Lastly, thank you!
See you in next blog....BYE!